Hysterical laughter

Today as I was loading the kids in the car , I saw my mail carrier . It was strange she usually drops off the mail between 6 and 7 pm. I should have been suspicious as she hands me a load of weekly sales Ad. As I place them in the car a white envelope falls out . As I lean over to grab it I see its from the light company. Well I thought I guess it's time for the new bill. As I open it my eyes widen , jaw drop, and my heart nearly stops . As I suspect it's a bill but the amount due is $445 dollars. Let me repeat just in case you are in disbelief $445!!! I  try my best to hold it together the kids are looking at me , but with no control I begin laughing hysterically. You know that kind of laughter the one when you want to cry, scream or just simply take off running but all that comes out is laughter . That's what happened to me , my kids thought it was funny hearing mommy laugh like this , that they themselves began laughing. If only they knew it truly wasn't a laughing matter . Once I calmed , I immediately call my husband who of course is in disbelief. He just called two days ago during that power outage and they said our balance was $0. He said he needed to see the bill and couldn't wait till he got out of work. So once I dropped of the kids I came back home to meet him. We spent that time in silence not knowing exactly what to say. But all I could think about was the check they sent us earlier this week , all I want to do is run to them and give it right back because some how they are screwing with me. But we both have to get back to work and will deal with this tomorrow . 

Today I had a meeting with an employee she has been wanting to meet with me for over 3 weeks. Between the distance, traffic and rain it takes me over an hour to get to her. She was already done with her shift so we decided to meet at a pizza place next to her store . When I get there I see her husband who is an assistant manager in our company, herself and a unknown woman who turns out to be her cousin. This was strange , I sit and ask so why am I here? Her cousin then Proceeds to tell me about a business opportunity , in the beginning I am upset but I try to keep calm about this. This is not what I expected ,she should've given me warning to this . But not to be rude I listen and it peeks my interest. I was all ready to sign up until they told me registration will cost $163. You could almost here brake sounds coming out of my head. This is not going to happen and they asked why. I was very honest I just can't afford it , even if I could get my hands on that kind of money it would be better off served somewhere else taking care of my immediate impending problems. The two that brought me to this meeting looked at each other as if they were secretly communicating to each other . The husband turns to me and says that they will pay for my registration if I feel really strong about doing it. I hesitate because I know myself  very often when I decide to commit myself to doing things I usually don't see it through it or I end up having to restart it over again. Case In point school is only 4 days away and I still haven't finished cleaning my sons room . I tell them I need to discuss this with my husband , which is true. I would need his help in making this successful he is the very outgoing , charismatic one between the two of us. I let them know that I will have an answer by tomorrow .

Later on my husband is too tired to really give me the full attention I need to discuss this so I have to wait until tomorrow. This will have to happen after we go to the light company to figure out what the hell is going on.  Cross your fingers for me , lets just hope it is some kind of huge mix up . Because at this rate the next time you will be reading something from me is a sign Im holding on the side of the street asking for some spare change .