Back to school

From Pre-K  to 2nd Grade my little man is growing up so fast.

Girls!!

For  some reason today as soon as I got to work.  I passed all the pretty nail polishes and decided my daughter had to have one. This weekend she requested a sparkly one.  I wanted to surprise her.  After i thought my class it was time to select a Polish.  I couldn't find one I like and polish is a little bit pricey.  Did I really want to spend between $5-$8 dollars for a 3 year old who would not want to wear it again.  As I gave in to buy the expensive one,  at the register what do I see a clearance bin.  This bin was full of all different kinds of polish and they were 75% Off.  Whoo hoo!!  I got the most sparkly one I could find.  It reminded me of a mix of Frozen and Cinderella.  It was blue with small and big glitter pieces.  I could not wait to give it to her.  As soon as picked her up I hinted that I had a surprise.  Very anxious she wanted it right away.  The pure joy that squealed out of her just made me laughed. She bother me the rest of the day until I polished her.  It really looked good on her.  But she insisted mommy had to match as well. 
This is one of my favorite things about having a girl.  And my daughter is extremely girlie.  Sometimes I'm not sure what to do since I'm not really a girlie person.  But it's exciting. 

It's My Birthday!!

It's My Birthday(single uncle luke's song in my head) .  Can't believe I'm 34 yrs old today.  I always find each year on my birthday that I spend the in reflection.  Where was I last year,  what have I accomplished in a year.  This year I was pretty satisfied with my answers.  It might not have been much but things are definitely different and know a good way. I didn't do much today that's the joy of your birthday falling on a week day.  I will do the partying on the weekend.  I went to work for half the day which is not norm for me.  I never work on my birthday but I said why not.  I still was able to go ione for a couple of hours and enjoy some alone time.  (best present I could ever give myself).  My husband came home and surprised me with a new promise ring.  Without going into the sad details all the Rings he ever gave me I no longer have.  So he said he is replacing them one at a time.  I can't wait until I get a new engagement ring.  The one I had was so gorgeous.  My parents and aunt had a small dinner for me.  It was simple, intimate and special.  Today wasn't any big frills but it was a great day.

Confession

So like most people I had a list of New years resolution.  And like most it didn't work out so well.  The only one that did is trimming the fat of drama in my life.  It hasn't been easy since drama comes knocking at the door.  But I have managed to deflect most of it.  Getting back to the list,  haven't gotten out of debt.  At least I can honestly say I haven't made it any worse. Well let's talk about the actual trimming the fat part.  Some how I have managed not to lose any weight but to actually gain some.  12 pounds to be exact.   I weighed myself last night and was in complete shock.  Not sure why,  when it was obvious that I was.  But I have been in pure denial.  Ignoring that I am more tired, blaming it on stress.  Ignoring that I started having back aches,  must be the mattress.  And the craziest thing ordering clothes and when they couldn't fit,  simply blaming that they run small.  Even though several times it was from different companies.  Nope, I needed to see the answer on the scale.  I have gotten to a weight that my poor little 5'4 body cannot handle.  I would have never thought in a million years I would be this heavy.  I must change,  but how do I actually convince myself to change.  I want to be better.  I want to break the cycle for my kids especially my daughter.  No matter if I try to make them healthy,  I know I need to live by example.  But at what point do I belive it enough to make a difference.  I was so sad last night,  determined too make a change.  Yet today couldn't resist the donuts at work for breakfast . See food is not my problem I usually can go the whole day without eating any real food.  But sweets that is my down fall.  Lunch, swore I would be better but nope that didn't happen.  Went to a Cuban restaurant and ordered a chocolate batido(Spanish milkshake) just because I haven't had it in a long time.  Came home felt so guilty over today decided that I wanted to walk.  But all the workout clothes I have are frumpy.  I remember once reading that you should feel sexy working out.  That the clothes you wear can make a difference in your workout altogether.  Well I bought me one new outfit, let's see.  Now I have to find the time to workout.  I know it's an excuse but it really is a legitimate one.  I cannot workout in the morning because there will be no one home to watch my kids.  When I get out of work it's pick kids up,  cook dinner and football practice.  I don't make it home until almost 9pm. Then it's feed kids,  take a bath and off to bed.  After that pack for next day.  Time is definitely a sought out commodity and I have to find it.  Wish me luck on my journey.

Running

I am so ready for this week to be over,  even though it just started .  This month all I have been doing is running around.  The company I work for acquired another company and now I am assisting with conversion training.  But I still have the same responsibility with my original Job,now complied with the new stuff.  My days are long and arduous.  Usually during the summer I do have a tendency to work more but I compensate it by having early days to have fun days with the kids.  So of course mom guilt HD come about when my son says mommy we never do anything.  He is use to summer being lazy days at the water park, or beach sometimes catching a matinee.  So far we haven't been able to do those things.  But I determined to make this summer memorable,  We shall see. 

Catching up

I know I have been gone awhile again.  Unfortunately for a short while I couldn't Dodge the curve balls kept throwing at me.  Through an act of nature,  I lost the home I was living at.  And for three months my family of four had to sleep in a room together in a family members house.  During that time the brand new car I was finally able to buy last September was in an accident.  That day life decided to throw me two major curve balls. In the morning I was in a car accident and then that evening my finger was broken.  Something as simple as my son playing with  his friend very near to me, caused the freak accident of my finger getting broken.  Well it wasn't a simple break,  I was going to require surgery to save the use of it.  After surgery apparently I must have had a reaction to the anesthesia because it would take hours to wake me up.  We never discovered what happened.  I am now on therapy to teach my finger how to move.  But through all this I was determined not to let this get me down to see the positive side of things.  I was blessed that I had family that could take me in, in my time of need.  I got lucky the accident was not my fault and blessed that I was not injured and the kids were not in the car.  As for my finger I am making slow progress.  But I do know it's progress not perfection that's important.  I will get there in time.  I might not have  hit the curve balls and got an automatic home room.  But slowly I hit each ball and am running the bases. 

Where we belong