Back to school

From Pre-K  to 2nd Grade my little man is growing up so fast.

Girls!!

For  some reason today as soon as I got to work.  I passed all the pretty nail polishes and decided my daughter had to have one. This weekend she requested a sparkly one.  I wanted to surprise her.  After i thought my class it was time to select a Polish.  I couldn't find one I like and polish is a little bit pricey.  Did I really want to spend between $5-$8 dollars for a 3 year old who would not want to wear it again.  As I gave in to buy the expensive one,  at the register what do I see a clearance bin.  This bin was full of all different kinds of polish and they were 75% Off.  Whoo hoo!!  I got the most sparkly one I could find.  It reminded me of a mix of Frozen and Cinderella.  It was blue with small and big glitter pieces.  I could not wait to give it to her.  As soon as picked her up I hinted that I had a surprise.  Very anxious she wanted it right away.  The pure joy that squealed out of her just made me laughed. She bother me the rest of the day until I polished her.  It really looked good on her.  But she insisted mommy had to match as well. 
This is one of my favorite things about having a girl.  And my daughter is extremely girlie.  Sometimes I'm not sure what to do since I'm not really a girlie person.  But it's exciting. 

It's My Birthday!!

It's My Birthday(single uncle luke's song in my head) .  Can't believe I'm 34 yrs old today.  I always find each year on my birthday that I spend the in reflection.  Where was I last year,  what have I accomplished in a year.  This year I was pretty satisfied with my answers.  It might not have been much but things are definitely different and know a good way. I didn't do much today that's the joy of your birthday falling on a week day.  I will do the partying on the weekend.  I went to work for half the day which is not norm for me.  I never work on my birthday but I said why not.  I still was able to go ione for a couple of hours and enjoy some alone time.  (best present I could ever give myself).  My husband came home and surprised me with a new promise ring.  Without going into the sad details all the Rings he ever gave me I no longer have.  So he said he is replacing them one at a time.  I can't wait until I get a new engagement ring.  The one I had was so gorgeous.  My parents and aunt had a small dinner for me.  It was simple, intimate and special.  Today wasn't any big frills but it was a great day.

Confession

So like most people I had a list of New years resolution.  And like most it didn't work out so well.  The only one that did is trimming the fat of drama in my life.  It hasn't been easy since drama comes knocking at the door.  But I have managed to deflect most of it.  Getting back to the list,  haven't gotten out of debt.  At least I can honestly say I haven't made it any worse. Well let's talk about the actual trimming the fat part.  Some how I have managed not to lose any weight but to actually gain some.  12 pounds to be exact.   I weighed myself last night and was in complete shock.  Not sure why,  when it was obvious that I was.  But I have been in pure denial.  Ignoring that I am more tired, blaming it on stress.  Ignoring that I started having back aches,  must be the mattress.  And the craziest thing ordering clothes and when they couldn't fit,  simply blaming that they run small.  Even though several times it was from different companies.  Nope, I needed to see the answer on the scale.  I have gotten to a weight that my poor little 5'4 body cannot handle.  I would have never thought in a million years I would be this heavy.  I must change,  but how do I actually convince myself to change.  I want to be better.  I want to break the cycle for my kids especially my daughter.  No matter if I try to make them healthy,  I know I need to live by example.  But at what point do I belive it enough to make a difference.  I was so sad last night,  determined too make a change.  Yet today couldn't resist the donuts at work for breakfast . See food is not my problem I usually can go the whole day without eating any real food.  But sweets that is my down fall.  Lunch, swore I would be better but nope that didn't happen.  Went to a Cuban restaurant and ordered a chocolate batido(Spanish milkshake) just because I haven't had it in a long time.  Came home felt so guilty over today decided that I wanted to walk.  But all the workout clothes I have are frumpy.  I remember once reading that you should feel sexy working out.  That the clothes you wear can make a difference in your workout altogether.  Well I bought me one new outfit, let's see.  Now I have to find the time to workout.  I know it's an excuse but it really is a legitimate one.  I cannot workout in the morning because there will be no one home to watch my kids.  When I get out of work it's pick kids up,  cook dinner and football practice.  I don't make it home until almost 9pm. Then it's feed kids,  take a bath and off to bed.  After that pack for next day.  Time is definitely a sought out commodity and I have to find it.  Wish me luck on my journey.

Running

I am so ready for this week to be over,  even though it just started .  This month all I have been doing is running around.  The company I work for acquired another company and now I am assisting with conversion training.  But I still have the same responsibility with my original Job,now complied with the new stuff.  My days are long and arduous.  Usually during the summer I do have a tendency to work more but I compensate it by having early days to have fun days with the kids.  So of course mom guilt HD come about when my son says mommy we never do anything.  He is use to summer being lazy days at the water park, or beach sometimes catching a matinee.  So far we haven't been able to do those things.  But I determined to make this summer memorable,  We shall see. 

Catching up

I know I have been gone awhile again.  Unfortunately for a short while I couldn't Dodge the curve balls kept throwing at me.  Through an act of nature,  I lost the home I was living at.  And for three months my family of four had to sleep in a room together in a family members house.  During that time the brand new car I was finally able to buy last September was in an accident.  That day life decided to throw me two major curve balls. In the morning I was in a car accident and then that evening my finger was broken.  Something as simple as my son playing with  his friend very near to me, caused the freak accident of my finger getting broken.  Well it wasn't a simple break,  I was going to require surgery to save the use of it.  After surgery apparently I must have had a reaction to the anesthesia because it would take hours to wake me up.  We never discovered what happened.  I am now on therapy to teach my finger how to move.  But through all this I was determined not to let this get me down to see the positive side of things.  I was blessed that I had family that could take me in, in my time of need.  I got lucky the accident was not my fault and blessed that I was not injured and the kids were not in the car.  As for my finger I am making slow progress.  But I do know it's progress not perfection that's important.  I will get there in time.  I might not have  hit the curve balls and got an automatic home room.  But slowly I hit each ball and am running the bases. 

Where we belong

Misty morning

This morning woke to a very misty day.  It felt like one of those days where staying home on the couch should be your only option. Today I decided I would have a work from home day. Secret code for having brunch with one of my best friend.  We haven't had the chance to do this in several months.  My goal this year is to make sure I have these moments at least once a month.  A mother has to be able to have some me time.  Went to one of my favorite places, panera bread.  Usually I go there at least 2 times a week.  But since I am saving money I haven't gone.  It's actually been quite amazing, that not buying breakfast or  coffee has saved a good amount in just 2 weeks. I have saved over $60 dollars.  I was able to give my husband spending money and treat my friend to brunch.  I even had   some left over.  The only thing was I ended up drinking juice and a half cup of soda. I forgot  trying to Trim  the Fat and first thing was to cut out all drinks except water.  Well I have to just take  it one day at a time.  It's progress not perfection.  I was able to lay out my trimming the fat resolution to my friend.  She liked it,  and can see the difference in my attitude.  I told her life is still throwing it's curve balls and I am striking out a few times.  But I  no longer letting it set  me back.  Tomorrow is another day.  I hope everyone gives this life resolution a try.  You can change it to fit your needs.  Everyone has something to change and  cut back in their lives. Goodluck to those who try.  Will keep you updated on my progress. 

Chocolate

Hello everyone.  This week was back to work and school week for me.  The kids and I trying to readjust back to our normal sleeping schedule.  This was also the week that I would start my healthy eating.  Started off good on Monday but the temptation of Lindt truffles at 50 percent off, has been hard to ignore.  Needless to say I gave in.  But I will keep trying.  Next week we are starting a family weight loss challenge.  I was hoping I would've have started some good habits before that day comes. Wish me luck the strong call of chocolate is very powerful. 

Everybody clean up

Today was our planned clean up day.  The kids would go off to my parents house while we tore the house apart.  Unfortunately we got a very late start and my son stayed home behind.  But having the little gone allowed me to be more productive.  Clothes were and still are everywhere.  Will be bagging them up and donating it to goodwill.  We are trying to limit the amount of things we have in our house.  Hopefully within the next few months we will be moving and really want to leave all the extra baggage behind.  This project seems like it might take a couple of weekends. Too many distractions.  But I did get a visit from some good friends my children's godparents.  It was very nice seeing them.  Life has gotten so chaotic  we haven't gotten the chance to just hang out.  Once I back from vacation and settled into work,  I have to plan a lunch date.   Well let's see how much cleaning I get done.  Wish me luck :)

Shopping day

Today was a true shopping day.  Which I completely enjoyed.  I now have a fridge and deep freezer full a food.  Hopefully I will limit the amount of trips I make to the store.  This usually causes me to over spend on my grocery bill.  I still haven't created my budget but now I have more of an idea.  By the end of this month I should have a budget set for everything.  Late last night my husband decides that we need to have a fresh new start.  I didn't realize that meant my wardrobe.  He started throwing some of clothes away.  I told him he must be planning on replacing it.  He said yes he wants to see me in something new.  He really meant it ,  because off to the mall we went today.  I started out small just a few undergarments and a nice black dress for a family portrait.  We even got my son some much needed new shoes.  I might have to factor in a little clothes shopping budget for us.  Maybe a new outfit a month. 

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!!  I've been gone for a while, unfortunately too many life curve balls.  I believe I now have a better handle on them.  This year I decided to be like everyone else and do a new years resolution.  Well more of a life resolution.  I am going to Trim the Fat from my life.  For me this represents several things
1) no More drama
2) cut back on over spending
3) cut debt
4) gut the guilt trip
5) of course the usual weight loss

These are just a few things that can apply to trimming the fat from my life.  And it's amazing how they lead into solving other areas as well. 
Today on day 1 of the new year I got the chance to  Trim one of the biggest dramas that has been in my life for about 3 years.
To keep the story short my long time best friend and I fell out.  During this fall out she was dating my brother in law.  They now  have a son together and we hadn't seen or heard from them in those years.  His family in the past few weeks has been trying to mend themselves together.  Which has been great.  Here's the the curve ball,  Today I get a phone call from my ex friend or I should say sister in law .  She wanted to stop by to bring my kids their Christmas presents. She, the baby and my brother in law came over.   I was worried it would be uncomfortable but it was fine.  They stayed for almost 4 hours.  I know we will never be able to pick up what we had before. But it's nice to start new.  Just this one simple act started the new years out right.  Curve ball hit and a full home run has occurred. 
So I am hoping that every one has a wonderful year.  Turn those new year resolution into life resolution.  And I welcome all of you to follow in my journey of solving the life's curve balls and resolution I have ahead of me.