How I'm feeling today

Tapas

Sunday fun day .. Not ! This morning was horrible my daughter is up a little before 7am but I was able to keep her in bed until 8am. I found myself in the most uncomfortable position ,my daughter snuggled up on one side and my husband on my other. I was hot and sweaty and my back was killing me from the position they had me in. It's like they both were fighting for me in their sleep. But I am the one who came out the loser . When I tried to roll over I let out a screech of pain waking my husband up. He sees that I am in a lot of pain and eventually he takes my daughter and my son out of the room to allow me to sleep. It's funny even when I have the bed to myself I sleep as if i wasn't alone. I was able to sleep until 10 am because eventually guilt set in and I have this urge to tend to my family . As if they couldn't get along for awhile without me. Most of our Sunday chores were done late last night during movie time so it wasn't much to do. My husband was in a lazy mood and so was I . When 1:30pm hit my daughter was cranky and was ready for her nap. After placing her to sleep I went back in the living room with my husband who now has taken over the tv and is watching one of his Japanese animations . This bores me and I can only take so much of Pinterest . I ended up falling asleep , I guess my body is trying to make up for all of the lost sleep . I slept all the way to 4pm , with only occasionally waking up because the kids wanted my attention. Again I didn't mean to sleep this long we were meeting up with my cousin who wanted to take the family out to eat. It ended up turning more into a dinner outing . Altogether it was 8 of us going . We didn't know where we were going he kept it a surprise. It turned out to be a great surprise it was a tapas restaurant and the food was excellent. Even my kids enjoyed themselves. The place was located in our design district. It really is a nice hip area. There are some beautiful condos there none of which I could afford . But I remember when my credit was good and the real estate was bad, they were practically giving it away for free. I should have tried to buy something then , i am not sure what I was waiting on. Maybe for the perfect credit score or until I had substantial  saving . I guess I thought I had more time . I never expected what would happen to our family to happen . And I surely did not expect it to have such a rippling effect on us . Now If I even thought of trying to buy a house a bank probably would throw me out the door . Some curve balls life gives you are ones that you can almost never recover from and the game seems to keep going never ending. All i can do is hope and pray and play the lotto. Ok also work harder but if we work any harder we might break. 

Here are are some pics at the restaurant . So much food everything came in little French bread . I had some stuffed with Brie and arugula , pulled BBQ pork, shrimp with aioli sauce and pear and Gorgonzola . There was so many things to choose from. Most sandwiches were just a  dollar. the most expensive thing was $3. Of course you have to be careful since its small you might tend to order more causing it to be expensive. My husband and i next week ,if funds allow will sneak out and have lunch together here. Look at us all just oinkers . Ha!! Ha!!

World War z

As usual I woke up very early on this Saturday because of my daughter. And my son follows behind her. I don't think I would mind so much waking up early if it was by myself. Then at least I could enjoy time to myself. I can't wait to my son and I really get the hang of this homework schedule and I am able to balance time spent between my kids and my husband. I can truly admit I haven't balanced my husband in yet. So thats the next thing I really have to work on. After that I am finally going to  try and schedule some me time , I would really like to use that time to possibly exercise. I am not satisfied with my weight and want to do something about. Its more for health reasons as well as being a good example to my kids . My husband wakes a few hours later and I tell him that I just want to lay down for a second . Ha.. 2 hours later I wake from my unscheduled nap , sometimes the body forces you to rest even when you don't want too. My son right away starts to harass me , cabin fever is setting in on him . We were originally suppose to go to a family BBQ in palm beach but because of my nap it set my time behind . I still had several really important errands to run and by the time I finished it would be too late for me to go. Normally it's not a problem but the host was not able to host us late because of a prior engagement. Maybe next time, I was disappointed not to have gone it would have felt like a Mini vacation because of the drive. I guess since my family hadd always driven to their vacations since I was a child , long distance driving doesn't bother me. It actually soothes me.  

Later on I decided to go and visit my parents . Partly for visitation partly because I wanted them to watch my kids for like 3 hours while my husband and I spent time together . That did not pan out my mom wasn't in the mood. I understood she rarely has time for herself and the financial stress is weighing heavy on her . Also She is too busy playing or being mother for other family members and that can be draining. Our family dynamic is one of a strong bond and a blurred responsibility lines. My mom is the matriarch of the family and has been for a long time . I use to believe it was my great grandmother but looking back that role got past to my mom at an early age. Maybe it was because she was a young mother herself but a responsible one. My mother never depended on the government or anyone besides my father for help . They struggle and survived it together. So even though I am an only child my parents ended up raising my moms two sisters and eventually and currently their children. My mom has never stopped this process. Usually once your kids are grown you get a moment of reprieve to be yourself. So that when grand kids come around you are able to spend that time with them without feeling so worn out .  My mom is like super family mom , she works full time , spends time with my cousins having movie nights with them. She also manages to speak for hours with my grandfather and my uncle who is currently stationed in Kuwait . She visits occasionally my great aunt and my great uncle two different households. And even then she wishes she could be there more . Sometimes I wish that I could be this way and I am sure she wishes I could as well to help alleviate some of the responsibility . But right now I can't I barely visit my parents and right now my kids are young and I have to focus on them .  I am going to try and make an effort to get a little better maybe once a month visits but I am not going to stress over it. Because sometimes people need to call and visit me as well. 

We didn't stay over too long I wanted to get the kids to bed on time so that I could at least have movie night at home. 

We would be watching World War z . It was a great movie . Then my husband starts comparing it too what's going on in Syria. Now here I am laying in bed blogging because he officially scared the shit out of me. Hopefully I won't dream of any zombies coming after me.

Puppies

So I was scheduled to have a nice size class today. I really didn't want to go , I miss spending my Fridays with my husband and daughter. He is off every Friday since he works 4 ten hour days. But it's about the sacrifice I have to make. Then I got a surprise I saw a man who had two puppie shitzus and they were only two weeks old . They were so adorable .

I really want my kids to have a dog , I grew up with them. But I need a big friendly sturdy dog that can handle my kids. Maybe a Labrador or even a Golden retriever. I think every child should have a pet. It helps with teaching children responsibility and unconditional friendship. 

I had nothing but women in my class today so of corse conversation got the best of us. But it was good it makes the normal blah more interesting . I also get the chance to learn more about them . 

When I get home my husband seems to be annoyed. It really is annoying when he is that way because his patience with the kids is less . It turned out to be a boring rest of the day. Which makes me grateful that I did end up working at least I got a chance to get out of the house . 

Glutton (Thursday blog )

Off to the office today ,excited because my boss is not going to be there. I don't have to explain why I have to leave early. I don't want her to know its for my son because that only brings up more questions .  She is going to be in Key West with one of the other trainers. I wish I could have gone but now that my sons in school , I have to keep buisness trips to a minimum . Before going in I treat myself again to some McDonalds iced coffee . I really miss having Starbucks but the price is just ridiculous. After about 20 minutes of being there one of the other trainers is in the mood for donuts . She wants me to ride along with her she promises I will enjoy it that it's better than Krispy Kreme . The place is called Dandee donuts the donuts they have are cake like. She is treating me to the donuts so she tells me to pick half a dozen. I chose flavors like cake crumb, chocolate honey glazed, chocolate frosted with lemon filing. They were really good but not better than Krispy Kreme. I guess they are in a different type of category. About an hour after we got back who strolls through the door my boss . Ugh .. Why was she here.  Apparently she had a migraine and couldn't go on the trip. Now don't get me wrong I don't mind seeing her I just don't want her to start thinking why do I always leave early when I am at the office . But no time to worry I have a short time to get a lot of work completed. And instead of things going smoothely I find two problems. These problems will cause me to miss points. Now I am glad my boss is here . She is upset because these store mangers promoted these people without our permission and without making sure the training was complete. Saturday the measurement is going to be pulled an even though she reversed the claim in might not go in on time. I will have to keep my fingers crossed and this also means I will be living with my company computer this weekend. Feeling stressed out caused me to want to eat , so I ate most of the lunch I brought from home. I was already stuffed between McDonald's , cake donuts and my wraps I could barely move. Then a sale reprensentative comes by and wants to treat us to Chipotle . I declined but the sales rep knows me and is like go ahead and order. I did but I called my cousin to

Pick my son up there would be no way for me to leave early . 3 o'clock rolls around and the food is not there I really want to leave . I want to pick my daughter up and go help my son with his homework. When I tried to leave when the food arrived my boss makes this comment that I never get a chance to sit and have lunch with them . Which is bullshit every time I'm there I sit in the lunch room. She just requires extra attention. Then she wants to know where I would be tomorrow . So I think she is now questioning what I'm doing . She needs to back off.  no matter if I leave early every day I still put in more than 40 hours of work time . I answer my personal phone at all hours of the day and i work on the computer at home. I just need to start being really careful . So somehow I managed to shove two tacos down. I truly need to be ashamed of myself I was eating non stop. I might have to roll myself to the car later .

Another meeting

Another day of meetings but this time I have made a decision to be late. I didn't want to have that rush feeling it stresses you out to early in the morning. I was only 15 minutes late and I missed the breakfast opportunity. That's ok because part of the reasons I was late I decided to treat myself to McDonalds. I'm just a crazy girl livin it up on the dollar menu. 

The meeting was very informative the supervisor that held this one is a favorite for me. She can drive me crazy with the thing she says but she is honest. The meeting lasted until 1:30 pm but I stayed until 2pm since she brought in a guest speaker . I really didn't stay to hear the guest speaker , I stayed for the free lunch they provided. I was even able to bring some home . During the meeting i saw this jcpenny picture thing in groupon and purchased it. Now all I need I do is order my daughter dress . I sent the information to several people and my friend was the first to respond. Then all of a sudden my response to her wouldn't go through. I kept trying but it wasn't working. I thought maybe the reception was great so I stepped out the room to check . Still nothing would go out and then finally it hit me. It was like hey dummy did you see I you could call out, maybe the phone is off . Sure enough it was off. My phone is the main line so it's always the first to go but it allows me to get incoming but no outgoing. So I call my husband from the stores phone to let him know and for the first time ever his was off. I guess Sprint is really getting tired of us always owing money . I just laughed in my head . because it is now startin to get to the point where these thing happen so frequently I am now constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop. Seems I'm like a centipede with lots of  little legs and shoes to go with it. 

By the time the meeting was over the phone was working again. I call my husband to see how negative I will be in my account . He jokes about it never being off. I of course am not amused by this , but he won't tell me. He forgets sometimes I am the main line because minutes after we hung up I received a text for the promise to pay date. We are going to be in trouble when we do have to pay it , the amount seems to be at least 2 payments. I will have to cross that road next week when it's due. This will change the plans for presents I will be able to get my son for his birthday. 

I go I get my daughter this is the first time this week that I actually got te chance to get her. Lately it's been my husband , which finally I'm having him help out more . Not that he never wanted to but sometimes I think I am super mom. When I get there my daughter is sleeping. The babysitter places her in my arm and she looks up for a second and puts her back down. I guess she must have realized after a few seconds that it was me holding her because she wakes with excitement. She gives me a great big smile while calling mommy and patting my shoulders . It just lightens my hearts , these are the little things that make being a mother so grand. We basically spent that time in kisses and tickles and lots of giggles. Later another rain storm with lots of thunder comes. She runs to be and just clenches my neck . As I lay there comforting her I think about a time where she would be older and that might not be enough. But I want to make sure she will know that I will always be there to give her that needed hug. My mind the goes on my son who isn't too far away at a friends house. And I wish he was home because I know he is scared and I wanted to be there to comfort him. But I got to give some space . My parents smothered me since I was the only child and I don't want to do that to my kids. 

When it was my time to get him , I called my friend and she told me he was done with all his homework. Great I thought I would let him ride his bike since the rain stopped. Well when I get there half of his homework was not completed. The note with the complete instructions I wrote for her to do with him was gone . Ugh .. Now I'm fustrated because its 5:30 and by the time my son finishes it will be bath and bed time. Sure enough I was right I felt bad because he really did want to go ride his bike . Guess I have to make it up tomorrow. So I am in definitely in the fall mood . I decided to make another apple desert a crumb apple cake , this one my co worker have me the recipe . It is simple peel and cube apples , add some seasoning and place in dish . I used pumpkin spice to give it that fall flavor. Next just dump yellow cake mix on top and pour a melted stick of butter in top. It was so good and I are with some vanilla ice cream. It was a perfect ending to a day. Sorry no pictures maybe next time. 

Conference meeting(Tuesday blog)

Today is conference meeting day at work which means I had to wake up earlier than normal. I was there at my son school waiting for the doors to open. Poor child he seems so tired. Of course as usual when you are in a rush everything must go wrong. Several accidents and severe traffic ; today is one of those meeting where if you are on time you are late. By some miracle and a little extra speeding , ok ok a lot of speeding I got there 15 minutes early. The meeting was located at a very nice and fancy Marriott we also had a dress code . Ridiculous I know we had to wear red shirts and black pants. Once in the building I had no idea where I was going , then I spotted a red shirt up the stairs. So instead of asking for directions I followed the red shirt . So several flights of stairs later I found the room . I could barely say hello , I had to try really hard to control my breathing . All I wanted to do was lay on the floor and just die. We were told that breakfast would begin at 8:15am and the meeting at 9:30 so with that time  difference I was expecting a seriously good breakfast. All that was there was some pastries, fruit , granola and yogurt . The mangers were not happy about this . When they attend their district meetings they get the works. But I have been told regional manager is cheap. Don't know why since the company reimburses his money back. The meeting was huge we had over 130 in attendance . We had about 4 speakers the first two were very lively the others literally put us to sleep. At least lunch was better it was an Italian smorgasbord with several different desserts as well. But you shouldn't put the boring people after lunch. I looked around and I could see some of the mangers heads bobbing up and down trying to fight sleep. At my table i had one of my supervisors for my area. It was awkard , he kept trying to start a conversation. This person i can barely tolerate . No one truky likes him So as soon as it was over I tried to be one of the first ones out the door . But some how I got behind, apparently some left 5 minutes before it was over . Now valet was taking forever. We received a sticker to valet out tickets and even with that I ended up paying $10. Does this company remember how much they pay us , they should have paid for our valet . 

I got home late due to me missing my connection and having to go the longer way home. My cousin picked my son up for me but has not had my son do any homework. So I had no time for downtime for myself . I needed him to get his homework done and dinner on the table. My husband comes late since he picked up my daughter . We are now having a hard time having that quality husband and wife coversation about our day. Once he bathed the kids he was off to my parents to help with their Internet. By the time he got back home it was bed time. We really don't do date night but I think it is time to have one. Hopefully we can get one soon . Usually we would just stay up late to talk to each other but since we wake up so early we can no longer hang to stay up . I guess that is what comes with age. Tomorrow I will be at another meeting this one smaller since its district specific . I really do hope we get out early so I can spend time with my daughter. And have time to allow my son to ride bike. He really is an out doorsy child . Which I would like to keep it that way. I really would like to buy a bike for my husband and myself so we can do family bike riding . My husband and I are over weight and out of shape . I don't want this to be the example for our kids . On both sides of our family we have weight problems , I don't want my kids to struggle with this. I know I need to start now but I do have to wait until I get my schedule more consistant to start working out . I originally two months ago was going to cross fit and even though I was in pain , I felt great. I can't wait to start it up again. When that time comes I will post pictures of my progress. But for now I acknowledge I am not super woman and have to do things one at a time. 

Ugh ... Mondays

Back to the normal grind. It was horrible my system for hiring people crashed and I had 6 new hires . I didn't really want to teach them because I was scared they weren't all the way through the process. But I ended up taking a chance. It wouldn't be fair to make them wait a week to begin working because our system wasn't working. And then on top of dealing with that the air conditioner in the store was broken. Usually my training room in that store is hot but with the fans I have it's bare able . Not today it was a sauna and it was so uncomfortable training in that situation. I was ready to leave but I didn't  finish until a little after three.  When I got out it was another rain storm  and I had to run to the grocery store to buy some items. I got soaked and I was slipping and sliding in my shoes . But I was going to make an apple tart for the first time, So I had no choice. 

Once I got home my normal homework with my son routine began . He now has a new set of spelling words but this time it's 12 words and some are capitalized . I am a little upset over the quantity because he only has 11 days to learn them. Which means I have to double up words on some days. I like that the last time I taught him one word a day , and while reviewing the previous day. I also had the day before the exam where it was just a review day. Things are starting to move to quickly for me with his school work. He seems to be fine I could just be overacting about it. 

I am really getting myself on some sort of  a schedule by the time my husband gets home , my sons homework  is done , dishes clean and done ready. The only things is that I really only get like an 1 1/2 to spend time with my daughter before bedtime . Hopefully on Wednesday since my friend is picking my son up from school , I will have the chance to get my daughter . This is pending I get out of my meeting by 2pm. I will use that time as mommy and me time . I just try to remind myself it's quality not quantity that counts. 

Tonight I am excited to try my new dessert and I ended up hitting a home run with it . I took a picture with my phone  , I know the lighting wasn't that great. It was a very simple recipe , just 5 ingredients. Apples(of course) , puff pastry, brown sugar, fresh lemon juice , caramel and walnuts. Like my daughters new word she uses  when describing something she likes to eat it was DELICIOUS!!!

Happy Fall!! Happy Birthday Aisha!!

This morning had the lovely pleasure of finally having to do the dishes. It took me over an hour to finish. I can't tell you just how much I miss having a dish washer. Which is funny because I did not grow up with one . Even when I had my apartment in college I never used it. When I was pregnant with my son my husband in I moved into an apartment. He told me how to use it , but I wasn't really paying attention. There was no need to use it. Well I was singing a different tune when my bundle of joy arrived. I decided I had to use it I didn't have time to do dishes. Well I loaded it up and I squeezed in dish washing liquid I side. Of course 10 minutes later suds started coming out everywhere. I looked like something out of a comedy show. Moments later mother in law walks in , at that time she was living with us. That story is to neglect for another time. She looks at me smirks and doesn't even offer me any help. So I am running around laying down as many towels as I can find. It was a mess , my husband comes home and he is laughing . He points to the dish washer packets , I felt so stupid . But once I got the hang of it , there was no turning back. Now in this house I am without the basics a dishwasher , garbage disposal and and normal city septic tank. The problem is I am one of those cooks who pretty much used every pot and utensil in the kitchen. After that I make breakfast and clean up right away. 

Today is my friends birthday and I am cooking her dinner. I don't know when I became the cook for everything but I guess now I am. I don't mind doing it because she is such a good friend. I just wish I had the ability to do more for her. During the day I wasn't feeling too good and I began to worry would I have the energy to cook. Luckily it subsided and an hour before she was due over I started to get things together. This week between the two dinners I easily spent enough to fill my fridge with food. 

I made her a taco bar. I had 3 platters one had sour cream, salsa, fresh tomatoes , Mexican blend cheese and lettuce. The other platter had ground beef, chipotle sauce , steak fajitas and rice. Third platter had tortillas, hard shell tacos and green peppers and onions. Everyone enjoyed I had the fill the platters  back up a second time. I was so tired by the end I could barely finish entertaining. I think I am getting too old for all this partying . 

Daily double

Today I didn't make it to the Redbull flutag. I was to hot and did not want to be out in the sun all day. Also I was tired, even though my husband promised me he would wake up when my daughter woke up he didn't. It took him an hour to realize my daughter was awake. But I was determined to sleep in so I stayed in the room until she finally woke him up. He finally left the room with her and I was relieved back to sleep I would go. But 20 minutes later he and my daughter left the house and my son woke when he heard the door. So much for getting sleep. I told my husband that my son usually isn't far behind waking up after my daughter is up. My husband takes awhile and comes back home with breakfast. Which was great because I didn't want to cook, not after yesterday's party.
So today we decided to go to Old Navy to exchange some clothes my daughter received on her birthday that are too small. She is a two year old wearing 3T clothes. She is getting so tall. My husbands cousins drove down and we got a chance to spend time with them. On the way there I witness my Daily Double.
I am sure you know how I feel rainbows are a sign of good things . Well today on my way to the mall with the family, I got an extra treat. I witness for the first time ever a double rainbow. Also it's been a while since I have seen a full rainbow. And here I am seeing two at the same time . It's was gorgeous , I was in the car with my cousins and they were so excited to see that same thing. It was so big that we pulled over on the expressway to try and take a picture of it. The car ones didn't capture the whole thing. The funny thing is that we weren't the only one to do this . When we got off the expressway we actually drove under the rainbow and it was so exciting.

At Old Navy of course they don't have the clothes in her size. I wanted to get the exact outfits but it was either too small or too big. I manage to get only 2 things the same. So I started to get different things, then I saw clearance I couldn't pass that up. I knew I would spend a little extra but somehow I ended up adding $50 extra to the amount. What was I thinking I can't afford to spend that right now. But I my pride was too embarrassed to tell the cashier to take things out. So now next week I will probably convince myself to return some  items. I did figure out why I spent so much , I finally looks at the price of the leggings and they were almost $9 a piece and I got three. Later went to the bookstore and it didn't turn out the way I wanted. My son saw one of those Smithsonian science project and it was really cool. It was a fuel cell car , and I thought what a great project his father could do for him. he runs of to show my husband and when he turns to look for the price (ready to be astounded) it was $120. Isn't that crazy for a little box with some parts. My son was disappointed as well as I. I like that is was educational and something he was interested in.  But at that price a bill could be paid. Also his birthday is this up coming Friday and if I got that , that would be his only gift. Which he would not be excited about. All will be forgotten when he is opening presents. We shall see.

Happy birthday Mom!!

Today I went to work at the Regional office, we were celebrating a co-workers birthday. My boss took us all out to eat. Which we already know how much I love, especially when it's free. I left work right after we got back, today I needed to do some shopping. So I met up with my husband at Sam's club. He had both the kids and they were driving him crazy. I just wanted to laugh because he always makes it seem like when the kids are with him they are always on their best behavior. I ran through the store as fast as I could needed to get things for Mom's birthday dinner I was hosting. But I couldn't leave fast because my husband and the kids where hungry. So we got pizza ,he didn't think to feed them before venturing over here. I load the kids in my car while he loads the stuff in his. He tells me to go home but I stick around and wait so we can leave at the same time. I am glad I made that decision because here goes life rearing the ugly side of it. My husband car does not want to start we spend an extra hour there trying to get it to work. we don't want to have it towed because we are so faraway from home. And even with AAA it will cost us some money. Finally I give the car a final jump and it turns on. So off to home to unload and we have three more stores to visit. I am running late dinner was originally suppose to start at 8:30pm but it was more like 9:30pm. My mom loves pasta especially Alfredo. She had called me earlier during the day to discuss the menu she wanted it to be a surprise on what kind of pasta it would be. She wanted me to order pizza in case some of the family didn't want it. That was strange because everyone likes it even the kids. She then whines its her birthday dinner and wants to be able to take some home. I told her I would put some in a container for her, but she wants a whole pot. So then instead of having one dish , I decided to have a pasta bar with 3 different choices. Got the idea from Pioneer woman when she hosted her daughters sweet 16 party. I had penne pesto pasta, chicken ravioli, and fresh pasta with fresh mozzarella and sundried tomatoes. I made cheddar bay biscuit, rolls and a nice salad to go with it. How about afterwards there was barely anything for my mom to take home. I had some extra chicken ravioli and promised her I would make it on the weekend. She seemed to have a good time my husband got her all her favorite Moscato's. The cake was not me my aunt bought her a Winn- Dixie vanilla cake which I hate. I know everyone likes Winn-Dixie and Publix cake but if that's what  you have during everyone's party you become tired of it. Usually I get the specialty cakes and some kind of chocolate in it. So I didn't have dessert, and you know with my sweet tooth that is strange.

 

 

Pasta bar

The parents

Loving her gifts

Dancing to the birthday song

Procrastination (Thursday blog)

I woke this morning with the attitude of not really wanting to work. I have already put in a lot of hours this week . Some at actual work, some working late night from home.  I was scheduled to teach a class but it was only one person. I truly hate having to teach just one person. So I called the person and cancelled. With that move I decided to stay home today. I took both kids to their locations and came back home to relax . Barely working from home , since I will be at the regional office tomorrow. I got 3 1/2 blissful hours all to myself. I even managed to take an hour nap. I really needed it ; my daughter up until now still doesn't stay asleep through the night. Some nights I can get her to go back o sleep after about 15-20 minutes sometimes it takes a lot longer. Then by the time she does go to sleep I am fully awake , trying to get my self back to sleep. I am not sure what to do with her, I didn't go through this with my son . 

Tomorrow my son has his first spelling test and his first science project is due. I think he will be just fine for his test. He knows how to spell the words. He even gives me attitude when I ask him to spell it ,like I already know that type of attitude. Now I have know about this science project for about 2 weeks, you would think I was done . Nope not good ole procrastinating me. I find myself at 8 at night driving through a rain storm to go to family dollar. When I get there , I really can't find anything I want on his project . I pretty much ended using what I had. At least it wasn't a total bust I found some cat toy balls that had immature bells inside. So I broke them open and use the bell for the hearing part of the page . Remember he is doing a book on senses. I know it wasn't fancy which I could have done. But I wanted him to be involved in it and I wanted it to look like he did it. I was only there to come up with the idea of how we would put it together . Here is what it looks like

Cover page

Smell page- it's a scratch n sniff

Taste page

Touch page

Hearing page

 I think we did a great job at it. My son was really proud of his work. We shall see what grade he receives. 

Sorry for having to put dates I am having difficulties uploading when I blog these past two days. 

Meetings(Wednesday blog)

Today I had attend a meeting for one of my areas. My boss was also going so it seemed for for me to show up. My boss is one of those people who feel she needs to at least see or hear from you on a weekly basis. With the work we do it is really not necessary. This area out of the two I have is my favorite . I actually came from there in my career. The district manager is the one who gave me a chance to move up with the company. He is one of those people that all his stores managers like him and do not want to let him down . The meeting was very energetic. At one point the district manager and my boss both had to step out of the room to get on a conference call. The DM leaves me in charge , that wasn't smart. I am pretty close to all the store managers so we we t crazy in there . We couldn't stop laughing , when they came back the DM ask if they completed their assignment . All together we all bust out laughing . So he was like what really happened then all you hear is someone say what happens here stays here. 

Later on he took us out to lunch , of course I was being greedy an had to go. I  acted as if I didn't have a child to pick up from school and I was far away. Once I got my food I left. I swear I was doing like 90 miles to get there on time and find parking. Even though I was on time I had to park far away. Today was early release day do. This was triple the amount of parents. 

In the evening i had another buisness to attend , this one was for my business. I took a friend of the family that works with my husband . We were suppose to go for an hour for the English portion but stayed for 2 1/2 . The speaker for the Spanish portion has been selling amway for 10 years and he earns 1million a year. She was saying how she came to this country with nothing and this company is what got her to where she is today. I truly would like to be able to say that someday . Again I leave this meeting pumped up and feeling like I can do this . I have been really slow to start but I just have to go at my speed . Also money is an important factor . It hard to convince people to buy if they can't sample. Hopefully between this paycheck and next I will get a little supplies. Especially because now insee how the products work. I can stand by the brand. Would really like to be making that kind if money within the next few years. We'll see but I am going to need all the help I can get . Don't forget I have my link on the homepage on this blog. Please stop by you won't be disappointed . 

Driving around town

Oh the distance I had to travel today and for what. I had to go to my regional office today and I wasn't in the mood for all the driving . It took me 2 hours to get to work with dropping the kids off because of traffic. I could only work for 3 hours because I had to pick the kids up. Then it took me another 2 hours to get them and go home. I spent more time on the road than actually working . Something truly has to give. I know people are thinking at least I was only for work a short period of time but that is not good. I have one of those jobs that if you don finish you have to take it home. Which means once the kids are in bed , I will be up working late burning the midnight oil.

The only thing that brightened my day was that my son got another green today. He really is trying hard . I hope that he gets enough so he can get a item out of the teachers treasure box. Maybe he will finally have a whole week in which he did good. Really looking forward to that. I told him that if he does I would take him to do something fun this weekend. The RedBull flutag is back and I know he would like to see these crazy people with their crazy contraptions. It should really be fun I hope the weather holds. Lately it's either extremely hot and humid or it's been storming non stop. Hey Mother Nature please take in to account I have a septic tank and I cannot handle this amount of rain. I literally don't need a shit storm. 

Hallelujah

So it's Monday again and like most people in the world I hate Mondays. Having to teach the same things week after week. On my way to work my best friend calls me and we catch up with what's going on in my life. She is surprise to see just how bad things are. But talking at least takes some of the stress away.  10 am rolls around and no one shows up for class. I am expecting at least one person. I am getting a little giddy at the idea of no one coming .  11am and still no one . Hallelujah , this is the first time ever, that in my 39 stores i am not going to have a new hire for the week. I was a little upset I wish I had know I would have work completely from home . But on the other hand I was glad I didn't because I probably wouldn't have taken my daughter to the babysitter . Now I have the opportunity to go home and relax all by myself for at least an hour .  But relaxation for interrupted by husband coming home for lunch. Normally I like this but not today , I wanted rest. 

Today he will be picking up my daughter so it was just my son and I . I gave him a 1 1/2 of downtime before beginning homework. During this time I took a nap and it felt good since we were having heavy rain. 

Later in the evening my best friend and her husband come by. They bring over some goodies for me to stock my fridge. My son is excited to see them as always. 

About three months now her sister gave birth to a baby boy. And since I am trying to stop being such a hoarder of baby things , I gave her my 3 in 1 fisher price jumper set. And while I was moving things out of it , what did I find my sons leap tag. So I spent that whole day cleaning my sons room looking for it for no reason. Well at least it motivated me I get it done.  I was getting ready to clean my bedroom to look for it. Now as I think about it maybe if want such a good thing me finding it. I probably would have gotten the whole house cleaned up. I have to find new motivation and no just having it cleaned is not motivation enough. I need to get on the ball I have family coming into town this thanksgiving.  My friend is suggesting a cleaning party but it would probably just be she and I doing it. Hopefully I will get it done in time 

Mini hurricane

Started the day bright and early ;of course not by choice. I look over  at my husband with such anger because he's sound asleep. The kids never bother him. He ends up sleeping in until eleven . I can't help but be jealous maybe one day I will just throw a bucket of water on him and ruin his sleep. Well after an hour of the kids and I up and about I decided to make breakfast. I hadn't gone grocery shopping yet so I had to be creative. I make southern style cheesy grits,and  two different kinds of sausage. Now lets talk about the eggs , I only had three eggs left but I would just have to stretch it out . While I was cooking my son asked me to make him strawberry milk, which he guzzled down. He came back asking for more , at this point I had cracked all three of my eggs in a bowl. I guess do to lack of sleep and focus I scooped in the strawberry powder into the eggs. Not just once, No!no! Not twice but three times before I noticed what I was doing.All I saw was the powder sinking into the bottom of the bowl.  I ruined the only eggs I had. Can you imagine if I didn't catch myself. Hmm , maybe strawberry eggs wouldn't be bad. Don't worry I threw them away but not before taking a picture of it. 

Almost gone to where I wouldn't notice

Green eggs and ham , huh pink eggs and milk . That's much better , Dr. Seuss

I wanted to run to the store but before that could happen the mini hurricane began. As soon as I saw the lighting strike , I knew thunder wasn't far behind. So I walk towards my kids because they are afraid of the sound . Before I could reach my daughter , boom and it rattled the whole house. My daughter was so scared that she got up to run towards me but she couldn't . She had socks on and with my tiled floor she looked like something out of a cartoon. She just kept running in place , it was so adorable . She just leaped in my arms. I picked her up and went towards my son and seconds after that a even louder one cracked and went rumbling threw the house . So here I am hugging the two of them and here comes my husband running scared , now hugging on me . So I guess I am the thunder protector. I spent majority of the day on the sofa with both kids on me . The lights turned on and off , the wind howled and I loved it. I opened my curtains and just watched as Mother Nature did her job. Seeing lightning strike in the sky is a beautiful sight to see . As long as it strikes somewhere else. Later on my son and I began working on his science project . We were able to get through 3 of the 5 senses. Will show picture when it's all done.

Play date

Last week I was contacted by my sons best friend mom from his old school. We set up a play date, my first ever. He was really excited my son has miss him. I was happy because my son doesn't have anyone in his life that is his age. All of our cousins are at least 3-5 years older. So my son behaves sometimes out of his age range. So today was that day we would be meeting up at a kiddie water park. I didn't want to deny my daughter the adventure so I had my husband come along. He would be there solely for my daughter. I know on future play dates , I will not bring her. The mom of the boy did not tell her son about the play date only that she had a surprise. so needless to say he was over the moon when he saw my son. The weather was perfect no rain in sight. It was really nice having a conversation with someone who is going through the same things with her son. her son is still in the private school and we compared curriculum. She was surprised how much homework and work my son has. Actually I was comforted by it , I think my son will now be a little more ahead. I am looking forward to more play dates. I have to learn not to wait to be contacted , I need to start reaching out as well. Like this mother did to me. It will be more beneficial for my son and I. I really need to make some mommy friends.

      

Annual check up

Woke up early this morning it was my turn today to get my son dressed. Usually my husband does this and it buys me an extra 20-30 minutes of sleep. But Fridays he is off so the plan was to let him sleep in. Well of course that didn't work out my daughter woke up the moment I left the bed. Yes I co sleep with my daughter. Not out of some need for her choose when  to leave my bed. It began out of lazy reasons. It was easier to breast feed her at night from my bed. And now I am paying the price she is extremely attached. But I am working on changing that . First I have to get my son out of my room and into his. Yes my daughter was not  the only child i co slept with. You would think I wouldn't make the same mistake twice . But that's not my style , I swore it would be different . Ha !! Silly me it's worse. So my poor husband ends up waking up because I had to work today. But this morning I seemed to be in a good mood . After dropping my son off to school , I still had 2 hours before my class started. So I decided to go back home and I made breakfast. I only do this on the weekend so it was not the norm. It was nice sitting down with my husband and having a conversation without having to rush to work. All that was missing was the morning paper. 

At work I only had two employees to train which made me happy. I wanted to leave early , my daughter had her annual doctors appointment today. Originally I wasn't going , my husband was taking her. There was this tiny little voice in my head and it was my mother . She was telling me that I know how important this appointment is and that I need to go. So I managed  to get out early to go with them. Not only is this her annual but we have been having some concerns about my daughter for over 4 months. She went from eating everything off your plate to basically starving herself. She won't eat anything. In the first month I didn't take her to the doctor about this. I thought it was due to the cold , and then to her teething. After 6 weeks of it and even my babysitter now concerned , I took her to the doctor . It was horrible they needed two vials of blood from her. and instead of getting it from a needle , they gashed her finger (not pricked) and squeezed out the two vials. She screamed the whole time. But that wasn't the worst part , they needed a urine sample . My daughter is not potty trained yet so they had to do a cath on her. My husband couldn't watch he stepped out of the room. And I thought men are suppose to be the strong one , i guess not when it comes to their baby girl. It took 3 of us to hold her down , the doctor said she is incredibly strong.  They ran test but found nothing wrong which is good but then you question what then is the problem. They gave us two more weeks to see if there was any changes. It did a little she would take small bites of food but nothing drastic. So I let it go I knew she would be having her annual in the next 2 months and we would really see then. Well now it's time and there has been no changes she is actually going back to not eating at all. Also now she barely uses the bathroom. Her diaper that I place on her when she comes out the bath doesn't need to be changed until 2 hours after she wakes up. 

My daughter is not happy to be here she now hates going to the doctor. She was traumatized the last time. They weigh her and see she has gained a pound and gotten taller . So they have no concerns. Now I am frustrated I know my child something is not right. The doctor tells me she is not dehydrated since she is producing tears. Ok great why is she now producing urine. Why am I only going through 2-3 diapers for the whole day. She then tells me well she is growing ,ok ! yes because i breast feed her. She is getting some nutrients in her body. Finally and wait for this she says my daughter is spoiled and my husband and I need to go on a break from her at least a week. That she needs a break from us. I inform her the wont happen my husband doesn't believe in the kids not being with us . My kids do not even spend the night at families house. She said then take a weekend. I was confused I wasn't sure what that had to do with my daughter not eating. I know I need to ween her off the breast, but most days she goes 6-8 hours without being with me. And she still doesn't eat . I am just going to keep watching her closely . If her mood begins to change , I will just have to get a second opinion. Not something I really wanted to do since we had been with our  pediatrician since my son was a baby. But i'm her mother and I must do what it is necessary. 

Later that evening I call my great aunt to wish her happy birthday and to see how she is doing . Poor thing she had surgery two days ago for a torn rotator cuff. She just got released this evening and is in a lot of pain . She needed her prescription filled so I ran and got  it from her then ran to the pharmacy before it closed. She was so happy , and after 20 minutes of taking it she begin to slur her words. My mom , cousin and my aunt came by too wish her happy birthday . Got some nice slices of homemade cake. Just in case you don't know I have a horrible sweet tooth. My aunt stays in neighborhood not far from me. It is really becoming a trendy area. The lot next to her has been turned into a neighborhood garden. Even with her place they have this little Parisian looking area . I can imagine sitting there just having my coffee and croissant. Need to build one of these for me. 

Yeah I could just see it. I just got to get the right wardrobe for this. 

PTA

Today I was suppose to attend my first PTA meeting. I mean I scrounge to find the money to pay the dues. What did I end up doing, taking a nap when I got home. And when I woke I still had time to go but I just decided to say , fuck it next time. Having all this homework to do with my son is draining . I can only imagine how he is feeling about it. So instead the hubs opens up the art easel and the kids have a ball. I even had a late night stroll with the kids around the neighborhood. We haven't done that in awhile. But even that late it was so sticky and muggy outside. I can't wait until the air gets a little crisper. But for us here in Miami that won't probably be until early December . If we are unlucky it could even be until January . But I can't wait.

My little Picasso 's

Double day Rainbows

This morning on the way to school my son screams mommy look another Rainbow. Just yesterday morning we saw a Rainbow as well. I like to believe its a good sign. 

Yesterday's Rainbow

Today's Rainbow 

Genesis 9:12-13 

And God said, “This is the sign of the covenant that I make between me and you and every living creature that is with you, for all future generations: I have set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be a sign of the covenant between me and the earth.

Ezekiel 1:28 

Like the appearance of the bow that is in the cloud on the day of rain, so was the appearance of the brightness all around. Such was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of theLord. And when I saw it, I fell on my face, and I heard the voice of one speaking.

Genesis 9:16 

When the bow is in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is on the earth.”

Working hard

Today I woke up late , which is the one thing I didn't want today. I was going to the regional office a I wouldn't be there all  day. I would be leaving at 12pm so that I can have time I pick up my daughter and son from school. And of course when you are in a rush what happens, rain. Now everyone is driving at a glacial pace. I get there and the office is pretty empty only about 5 employees. That was great for me . I could take up both Printers.  I was running around like a chicken with her head cut off. I left 30 minutes late and was worried I wouldn't make it in time to pick my son off. I debated should I even get my daughter now or later. Too save gas I decided now so through the rain I am driving like a bat out of hell. With all this rushing I got there 25 minutes early. Only me I tell you , stressing out for nothing. Now I have to get home to work in homework . It took forever mg daughter feels like she can help my son. So later to distract her I opened her tea set she received on her birthday . She instinctly knew what to do with it. But of course what is a tea party without guess so I had to get on the floor and drink tea . I love it , these are the great things about having a girl. 

Unfortunately the quality time had to be cut short. Soon as my husband got home I ended having to go back into work. The manager from yesterday wanted me there to help write the problem employee up. People really do amaze me . This girl was acting like she never did anything really wrong. Afterwards the manager was telling me that all get employees have a hard time coming on time to work. So I told her when she does her schedule next week to schedule each one 30 minutes later and if they are still late they are intentionally doing it. Once she realizes this , then it will be time to write them up. 

I was able to get home in time to read my son a story before bed. My daughter is a hot mess. She wanted my attention and did not want to hear the story , but my son was really into today. She got so mad that she just stood there with this look that could burn a whole through you. It's crazy how much attitude she already has.

At this point I still didn't have dinner on the table. I am so glad I am the queen if last minute 30 minute meals. Also that my kids don't eat what we eat. The problem is that my husband and I always late at night and I cook two separate dinners. I can't wait until the picky phase is over so I can save on grocery and time . 

Homework!!!!!

Started the day forgetting my head. Today I began class work at 10am but some how I was getting time confused. I got back home a little after 9am and I thought I had an hour to relax before going to work. Thank goodness I got my head back in time. I jumped up a ran out the door and got there exactly at 10am. Today I had four people but it felt like 10, not one of them completed their new hire paperwork. They needed it done so that I could hire them. It took two hours to get it done . So again I had to have my cousin pick my son up. I really have to get this under control. My husband and I decided it was better for him to pick up my daughter so I could be with my son. I get home and he informs me he got a yellow. So this is how we are going to start this week. I pull out his homework and received a huge shock. The amount he got you would think he was starting college tomorrow.  He had to write his name five times , he had three sentences, 40 sight words, 2 pages of math, 10 spelling words that he had to write 5 times each , science project and spelling test next week. There is more but you get the idea. He takes forever to finish it. The only reason I was able to put dinner on the table was I had the entree cooking in the slow cooker. I love that machine. After putting the kids to bed I receive a call from one of my managers. She is upset  , one of her employees has been a no show for two days. She doesn't know what to do. Unfortunately we can't just fire her because she would be able to collect unemployment. So tomorrow night I will go and write her up then we can begin the documentation and soon we can terminate. I am so disappointed with this girl. Months ago she was just a cashier and she asked me for the opportunity to move up in a different department and I did. She really wasn't doing the work well and now this. Some people are so ungrateful. But that is fine I have others in that department who would love more hours. And there are plenty of people looking for a job and just want the opportunity. Since I had classes today , I had to catch up on emailing and tracking my training . I didn't finish until 2am but that's the sacrifice for being able to leave work early. So what am I doing ? finishing this blog and on to Pinterest I go. I guess I forget I have to be up at 6am. 

Cleaning day

So today I woke up with the urge to clean. When this happens I cannot let anything stop my steam. Because once I stop who knows when I will start. The location is my sons room since I never got it done a month ago. Then it turned out to be a scavenger hunt  I was looking for my son's leap tag. I was determined to find it , which of course I didn't. I spent the time cleaning hiding from my son so he wouldn't see me throwing his toys away.

 Then of course my daughter became cranky later on and wanted her nap which is not a problem but I fell asleep with her. So two later I continued my mission way until the night. But it got done and I felt a great sense of accomplishment. 

Happy Birthday Brit Brit!!

Today is my baby's second birthday. You would think since she is my second child that I would have a better handle on accepting time passing . But no I feel more sentimental about it. Maybe because she is my last one and the next time a baby is in my life is when I become a grandparent. Today was not the day I hoped for . We ended up spending most of the day home because we had no money to go anywhere. I felt really sad since originally I had this whole Minnie Mouse theme party planned out.  I actually have all her birthdays planned out until she is five . But I had to make the sacrifice . I am worried that I may not get to order her birthday dress for pictures. I am huge on pictures and that is why I sacrificed the party idea. But now to think I may not have that it's devastating. I know I will get pictures it just may not be the way I want. It might be a month late , I will have them. We were able to go back later and exchange what my husband originally bought. We were able to get her a whole Doc McStuffins doctor table, a matching doctor kit, baby stroller , and art easel . She was extactic over her toys. Her brother loved playing with her. I think I got over 30 shots and had my blood pressure checked as many times. Very late I decided to do a caking cutting ceremony. Some how we ended  up with over 10 people in attendance . So I had to go an think of something quick to feed everyone . After last minute shopping I made shrimp Alfredo , it was a hit. I got her a little cupcake she could blow her candles on her own and for everyone else a chocolate ganache vanilla mouse cake. Wow .. I tell you. Sometimes with all the worrying I forget the important things is that she had a great time and she felt lots of love from everyone . They all made her day special!

Just checking out Lamby.

Making sure the baby is sleeping

Cake anyone !

Just one year ago .. Wow time flies

Just another day

Due to me trying to fix my schedule so that I can pick my son up from school , on Fridays I am now forced to have classes. Usually I either work from home or work out of the regional office. My husband this morning had to go get a new tire for his car so extra money ,since it wasn't  just a simple flat. Today is pay day and as usual it's gone. My poor husband is already negative in his account. But no time to worry I am running late to work and I have to stop at one of my other stores first. 

My husband calls me later to let me know he needs to go to Walmart what should he get , I tell him to buy our  daughter birthday presents since she is turning two tomorrow. When I get home and he shows me the gifts, I was not happy with most of it. Not that they we're bad but they weren't what I would buy. So now tomorrow we have to exchange them. I really want her to have some Doc Mc stuffins things. It's one of her favorite cartoons. We ended up saying home an it was a very boring Friday. We are not creative enough to make it exciting. Being broke really does suck.. My husband decided at night to change the oil in the car and my son happily helped. my daughter wanted in on the action but it wasn't much she could do. There is nothing more i love then seeing my husband and the kids together. Very sexy ;). So that's my day, But at least I have to look forward to tomorrow , not sure we are going to do but it will have to be exciting. 

My grease Monkey's

Rosh Hashanah

Today there is no school due to a holiday . So in trying to save an extra $50 on babysitting fees, I decided to stay home with the kids . Sometimes the decision we make for money may not always be the best. Because even though I was home I still had to work. And every 5 seconds my son kept asking me if we were going anywhere and my daughter just wanted to play with my lap top. Getting work done was very difficult. My close friend dropped off her son later on which was great because now the kids had someone to play with. So I had three kids to deal with today . 

Today I also got a visit from my friend Lulu she was coming to pick up the copies of her book I made her. Sadly since school has started I haven't gotten the chance to finish reading it. I am still working out this sleeping pattern. We got a chance to talk and catch up on what's been happening over the past few weeks . This is the most we have seen each other on a constant basis. I really like it, I have been saying I need to be better at socializing more . I pretty much don't get the opportunity to really spend time with my friends or my extended family. I am going to try and work on it. 

Tonight my mom gives me a call and she is upset . Financially she is doing bad , partly well Hell mostly because of me. She will never say it but its true. She has been carrying me for a long time now by helping me pay the mortgage . But she hasn't been able to do it anymore, so she is behind 3 months and they are starting the foreclosure process . She at moment is the owner of the house we live in. She came to be the owner  because 3 1/2 years ago her beautiful baby sister , my aunt died suddenly at the age of 36 from a pulmonary embolism. She left behind a teenager, my cousin who ended up living me with.  At the time it was ok my son was only 2 and sleeping in my bed. So we all fit in my tiny 2 bedroom apartment.  But later on when I became pregnant with my daughter we no longer had the space ,we needed something bigger so that my kids could have their own room. And my cousin needed his own space. Well we first tried to get a 3 bedroom in our complex but we couldn't . It was an income restricted apartment and I no longer qualified because  I exceeded the amount. So I had to look else where so now without income restriction the cheapest place we could find for a 3 bedroom was $1600. But before we could do that there was some last minute changes , the lady that was originally renting my aunts house suddenly had to move . So my mom ask if we could move in and we would only have to pay $1000. Ok we decided not happily , I never like the house , but our lease was up and we had to move . We would just do this for a year(which we are now on our second year)Well during that first year every thing that could affect us financially happened and on top of that we had a new baby. So more bills comes with new baby. And unfortunately we are not one of those family where I could stay home to save money. Why? Because I am the bread winner and that is not saying much. This house also turned out to be a money pit , light bill triple for us because this house is  old and has no insulation. Water bill which I never had before is ridiculous in price, suspect because of leak somewhere . It's just horrible! So while this was happening my cousin tried to help us with the insurance money he recieved . Which I will admit we didn't manage properly. Husband and I are not good at managing or saving money. Well this year we have been struggling to pay the mortgage. So my mom has basically been borrowing money from Paul to Mary to try her best to help us. Both at the same time life has been giving her, her own curve balls. So what to do I cannot lose my aunts house . How could I look my cousin in the face and say all the money we borrowed from you and we are going to lose your house. I am upset , scared , panicky. Because where would my kids and I live. Most kids when struggling this bad have the opportunity to move back home to get on their feet. I don't have that. Which is what I have needed more than just the help of paying mortgage. But my mom has her other sister and her two kids living with her. They have been there since 2006 and they are not going anywhere. The rest of that story will have to be for another day. I would have moved but that requires money. Being in the lower middle class really sucks. Getting paid a little more really isn't worth it getting paid a lot more is. What's the reason I say this is from experience , you don't qualify for the nice income restricted places so you have to pay more to live somewhere else. You don't qualify for tuition for private schools so you have to pay. By the end of you having to pay more on everything you end up having way less than the little more money you now have. So now I have to figure out very quickly how am I going to solve my problem. 

Riding with the bosses

Today I went to our Regional office to work. My boss was going to do the HR audit on the trouble maker store manager. Our HR boss decided he was actually going to go so we rode with him. The manager was shitting bricks when she saw us. Apparently a lot of her employees have called HR to complain about her. We finished the work quickly since there were three of us. Now it's lunch time my HR is always hungry ,he really doesn't work that much. I am curious where he is going to choose to eat since he had recently become a vegetarian. He chooses PF Chang, I am not to excited over this choice . But hey it's free food who am I to complain. 

When we get back to the office he disappears , like I said he hardly works. I don't see him having this job that much longer all of the supervisors are starting to complain.  The rest of day seemed to go by fast for me. 

Today I had my business meeting to attend and my husband was coming with me. My mom came over to watch the kids for me. We ended up being late because as usual life steps in. My husband got a flat tire on his way home. He decided since he wasn't to far from home to just drive on it.  The meeting was good it convinced me again that I can do this . Lets hope this feeling last , since I get discouraged easily. I was gone probably at the most for 2 hours . My poor mom seemed frazzled . My kids drove her crazy she has never seen them behave this way before . Now she understands what I have been going through. I am not saying that my kids are bad but they can really test your patience.  Tomorrow is no school so let's see how I will fair.

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